Week 3 - Day 12

Short post today because I quite literally have nothing to write about! I felt very tired when I woke up this morning and the tiredness hasn’t lifted the whole day, so I have spent most of it on the sofa. Having spent my life being a generally 'busy' person, I struggle with doing nothing and I’m feeling very frustrated that I haven’t managed to tick anything off my to-do list. But I also know that I need to listen to my body at the moment and rest when it’s telling me I need to rest. I received this advice today from someone who is a month out of treatment –

“Take time to rest, your body needs it to begin healing and eat as much as you can! Get used to watching TV, listening to music /podcasts and be kind to yourself.”

Guess I had better ‘get used to watching TV then! 😊

Lily Allen was the choice of music this morning – ‘The Fear’ of course when I was bolted down and then ‘Smile’ as I was finishing treatment - and yes it did make me smile.

I’m still eating (a lot) although am rapidly going off meat. The texture is just all wrong when you can’t taste it properly. Cheese is becoming my best (protein) friend and already I’m thinking of the magnificent cheese souffles I had post-surgery. They probably weren’t even that delicious, but as they were the first savoury food I had managed to eat after so many yoghurts, custards and shakes, they tasted absolutely divine. Tonight I enjoyed an alcohol-free Corona beer. Popping the lid off the bottle is probably the most 'normal' thing I have done in this otherwise topsy turvy world I’m currently inhabiting. Friday tomorrow – phew.